These are the reactions of two different boys to the same video. James claims to love me, and Bryar goes out with one of my friends.
awesome. i have a youtube video, too
my rents don't know . . .
hold on, I'll send you the link
it's not funny
i cried when I wrote it
and wore black the next day
uh... how long will this depress me?
whats it about?
just letting you know, i picked the names randomly
and it's part of a story i wrote
i killed my chatacter
my friends and I assigned names for each other's characters
and we swore we'd use them
uh JESUS. i look at the video for the first 10 seconds and then closed the window.
im not one for depressing things.
no it's fine
but tearing some one apart?
what made you write that?
oh, they could've all committed suicide, but i decided it was more fun to let them kill each other. what do you think? i didn't write it, it wrote itself. not my fault
and i thought I was goth when i was younger!
it's not goth.
im still shaking!!!!!
won't show you my writing anymore
that's all you had to day
i offended you. im sorry. it just scared me that a girl as bright as you could write something so dark.
-laughing- as bright as me. yeah, right
you dont wear black and cut yourself do you?
i hate wearing black unless im grieving for something or someone
it just... imagine I wrote that. what would you say?
i would say it was very emotional and very well written and i probably would've cried if I'd gotten attached to Senko like I got attached to Simon in Lord of the Flies
your not dark by the way. i have met a girl who tried to slit her wrists and commit suicide. she had black hair, a pale face, dark eye make up, black lipstick.... you aren't dark.
just because someone doesn't wear dark clothing doesn't mean she's bright
and even if she is, it doesn't mean ONE PART of her story can't be dark
i am sorry to have to suggest this, but if you arent obligated to continue NaNoWriMo you should back out. you need to cut out ALL the stress you have right now. Im not gonna force you, but I would seriously consider it.
no no no
that's my stress relief
oh. write happier things then. may help more.
that happens to be my output, my relief. look at it this way. kill characters, or kill people. which would you rather me do?
BUT THERE ARE OTHER OPTIONS!!!!! you dont need to kill anything!!! if you are driven to this kind of stress i cant help you. You NEED to see a therapist, and you need medication. i know people who were sent to mental hospitals because they denied treatment. then they lost their choice.
im sorry... you dont need to respond.
no, i don't NEED medication just because i killed off a character. stop trying to act like you know me, because you don't. stop trying to act like you know what i need and what i don't, because you don't. you don't know exactly what I'm going through. i can do this. i have my support group, and i have my counselor. if SHE, who has actually gone to college, says i DON'T need meds, then i don't need meds. so just stop, and leave me alone. i have to go, anyway. we're going out to eat soon. and i swear to you, i'm not suicidal or homicidal, so I'm not in danger, so i don't need meds
And now Bryar
ok. and ty
u kno what he told me yesterday?
he told me i need meds
just cos I killed a character in my story
by ripping him to shreds
anyways, any special reason ur happy?
imlistening to styles of beyond <3￼ lol
and that means nothing
k . . .
i would have loved your story delaney
='( that was kinda sad tbh
i cried writing it
is it finished?
k . . .
wanted to read it or something?
not sure i would let you anyway . . . it's really bad . . .
you wrote it
it should be good
you know im nice
atleast with you
sorry, i gotta go. my mom's friend is here with my second favorite little boy in the world. :D
thanks for the help, and the praise, and the conversation. ttyl
see yah deedee
And James wonders why I talk to Bryar and avoid him.